I’ve been doing a lot of reading of wonderful sober soilders and those who are at the cusp. Each time I go to write an insight I get another nugget of inspiration to ponder on. What a wonderful place to be, virtually surrounded by wisdom of all sorts.
So here is a quickie note.
I am very thankful to have made it this far. I have 87 days under my little belt, and have been on the roller coaster ride of my life. No theme parks super triple dip and dive ride has anything on a newly sober persons thoughts and feelings. I’m up so high floating around telling the whole world they are sick in spirit and drunk. Next thing I am low-low wondering is it worth it to go on fighting.
So is it worth fighting for your life? Damn right it is!!!
It’s not easy, and being this new can suck at times. But on a good day, like the ones I’m thankfully able to string together now you can feel how awesome being sober is. So I had to write how thankful I am for one of many things. Today’s choice is sleep.
Sleep is not something I had for 10 years. I had snooze, nap, or pass out. But now I am tired at night. I climb into bed without being pulled out for one more drink. I sleep soundly through the night. I’ve gone from needing 10 hours to a good solid 7.5. I wake up without feeling remorseful, ashamed, or physically ill.
Not everyday I have woken with boundless energy, actually most days up until three days ago I woke up exhausted. But I made it through to three days ago where I woke up feeling good, rested and ready for the day. I wouldn’t have had these peaks if I had succumb to my valleys of a few days or weeks ago.
So to end my quick/ not so quick note. Keep fighting through the low-low places, the peaks are worth the fight. You are worth the fight! No one waits 2 hours in the sweltering hot sun in a line designed to calm cattle to ride a roller coaster that just goes down and scrapes the ground for 60 seconds. We do it for the thrill of the big ups and crashing downs, the spins and spirals. -The thrill of life!
Have a great day and if it’s not so great hold on for the promise of tomorrow being better- and repeat.